Well,
Yesterday I passed the 1 calender month milestone although it doesn't feel it to be honest.....
Today I've gone back & re-read all my posts from the start and I remember the tears streaming from my face as I posted the first of these in the help section. I was seriously in need of some help & I got it.
For me I think all the emotions around quitting have been wrapped up in the feelings / relief I had over my illness. It realy was a wake-up call to be on a resipitory ward and know that over 90% of people were there because of smoking.
My physical recovery from pneumonia is going well, I have a right lung clear from fluid and a left that is gradually improving. This is the sign of the smoker - my lungs cannot clear the fluid as quickly because the bronchials have been damaged by tar. I returned to the GP yesterday and have been given the all clear to return to work on a part time basis on the 1st December. I hope to return full time after the Christmas break.
I have not visited this site so much in the last week or two because I am finding myself more active. The energy levels are returning and I can actually start working on the "to-do" list. I cannot take any physical exercise (gym / bike) until the new year, but at least I can now occupy myself more.
My biggest want for cigarettes was when I was just lounging around on the sofa - when that would happen I got the lap top out and read how well everyone was doing on here and think that I wanted to be part of this "gang" too so I couldn't pick up a fag. You all made it so much easier for me I cannot thank you enough.
So, I have realised I'm not thinking about it (smoking) all the time now and when I do think about it it's starting to take me by surprise and I find my sub-concious saying "what you thinking about that for?"
I mentioned in a previous post I know I am not near the finishing line yet - I have so many smoking associated activities still to face - a lot of them related to going back to work and so******ing properly - then I will probably be a more frequent visitor again.
So this is my last post in month one - I'm moving on up! I will try & look in at least once a week.
Take Care Everyone
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