Reflections on Month 1....

[nsd_user663_3712]

Well,

Yesterday I passed the 1 calender month milestone although it doesn't feel it to be honest.....

Today I've gone back & re-read all my posts from the start and I remember the tears streaming from my face as I posted the first of these in the help section. I was seriously in need of some help & I got it.

For me I think all the emotions around quitting have been wrapped up in the feelings / relief I had over my illness. It realy was a wake-up call to be on a resipitory ward and know that over 90% of people were there because of smoking.

My physical recovery from pneumonia is going well, I have a right lung clear from fluid and a left that is gradually improving. This is the sign of the smoker - my lungs cannot clear the fluid as quickly because the bronchials have been damaged by tar. I returned to the GP yesterday and have been given the all clear to return to work on a part time basis on the 1st December. I hope to return full time after the Christmas break.

I have not visited this site so much in the last week or two because I am finding myself more active. The energy levels are returning and I can actually start working on the "to-do" list. I cannot take any physical exercise (gym / bike) until the new year, but at least I can now occupy myself more.

My biggest want for cigarettes was when I was just lounging around on the sofa - when that would happen I got the lap top out and read how well everyone was doing on here and think that I wanted to be part of this "gang" too so I couldn't pick up a fag. You all made it so much easier for me I cannot thank you enough.

So, I have realised I'm not thinking about it (smoking) all the time now and when I do think about it it's starting to take me by surprise and I find my sub-concious saying "what you thinking about that for?"

I mentioned in a previous post I know I am not near the finishing line yet - I have so many smoking associated activities still to face - a lot of them related to going back to work and so******ing properly - then I will probably be a more frequent visitor again.

So this is my last post in month one - I'm moving on up! I will try & look in at least once a week.

Take Care Everyone

XX

[nsd_user663_3712]

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Cannot work out why soc!alising has been starred out - cannot find a profanity in that......:confused:

[Tomatpots 10 Years Smoke Free]

I mentioned in a previous post I know I am not near the finishing line yet - I have so many smoking associated activities still to face - a lot of them related to going back to work and so******ing properly

Very Well done

When these moments come, face them full on.

You are the one who has done what all your smoking friends want to do.

Rejoice that you are free and don't forget..... not one puff

[NicFirth 10 Years Smoke Free]

We all have to face the trigger points, and some turn out to be more of a challenge than other.

The important thing is that you meet them and defeat them!

We know and you know that you can make this quit permanent, so go for that finish line.

Well done

Nic