Today is Sunday and this is the fourth weekend since I stopped smoking and I think I have made it into the land of the non smoker where the air is clear and I can see for miles!
This weekend I have felt normal and free instead of still being preoccupied by smoking.
I believe I can live without cigarettes and be just as happy without them, in fact I would say happier now that I am free from their slavery and can come and go as I please.
I am not even bothered about Christmas coming up and there is no doubt that this will be my first adult smoke free Christmas and I am looking forward to it.
I have many opportunities to smoke, after all, I know I am an adult and I can smoke any time I want to. I go up to see my mum quite alot and especially to look in on her dogs and let them out when she works at the weekend. My mum smokes and always leaves big roll up butts (urgh) in the ashtray along with her lighter. A couple of time, I have looked at them and thought that a drag wouldn't hurt, I pick up the roll up and smell it - it reeks, then I put it in my mouth and the taste makes me sick so I put it back in the ashtray. What would be the point? I am no longer addicted so where is the sense in smoking???? I don't even do that anymore, those roll ups in the ashtray don't even catch my eye.
I did have a dream though yesterday that I did smoke and was so annoyed with myself in my dream........when I woke up I was so relieved it was only a dream!!!
I hope everyone else is doing okay.