Where I stand... exactly halfway through month 2.

[nsd_user663_1655]

Hey all, I guess its time I post something, I've been hiding in the background for quite some time now, not really sure why. I am celebrating, but also fear the future. I don't fear it because I think I will want to smoke, but fear it in the sense that I am not sure of how i will be able to view myself. I know that I cannot leave this forum, as I did last quit, and ended up smoking soon after... yes... one puff did it ... I am happily not smoking, but still think about it a lot... partly because of guys at work, and partly because it is getting warmer outside. I wonder if I will ever see myself as a non smoker, or just be an ex smoker for life? I would like to say I can be both... but if I am still thinking here and there about my addiction, then I am an ex smoker (in my head anyways). The cravings have turned to thoughts, they are getting fewer and fewer, and my wife is pumped... but I'm not backing down from seeing myself and the addiction for what we are, intertwined for life. Perhaps in ten years I will look back at these posts and laugh that I was all confuzzled about a technicallity, when the only thing that matters is that I am still not smoking... but its the technicallities that get into my head, and dwindle and spin and create confusion and drive me batty. Things like this are like hearing "safety dance" on the radio, then having to get through a meeting at work. "last years financial curve... we can leave your friends behind, cause if your friends don't dance... " Its never a good thing. I don't even think I want this answered, as its kind of a hypothetical question. I will sidebar though, and congratulate everyone on this forum that is sticking to their guns, and beating the thing we all came to hate So proud of us all! Heres hoping we all can be smoke free friends years from now, even if we aren't here at all! ( i know i'll never forget about a lot of people here... its kind of like being a P.O.W. ... and getting set free, and you all are the people that are helping me travel through the unknown jungle to freedom... i know... crappy metaphor... but meh... I think its time to go for a run. Yep... definetly. high fives to everyone.... you all rock!

The Norseman in the Background.

[nsd_user663_2981]

Right back at ya!

I hear you on the P.O.W thing......... i'll (hopefully) never forget.

Stay stong!

[nsd_user663_2931]

Big fat hello to viking!!

Hi vike, have missed you not posting on here. You're doing sooooooo well and I'm envious of you. A month and a half you say? So happy you are sticking at it this time I might not be right behind you anymore but I'm behind you nonetheless! Still urging you forwards!

Too right your wife would be pleased for you too! I bet she loves her non stinky husband even more lol

As for the non/ex smoker thing, I guess that will always be a matter of personal preference. Myself, I see myself as a non smoker now. I never want to stick one of those nasty things in my mouth ever again. I feel so on top of things its unreal.

Here's to another month and a half smoke free!

[nsd_user663_3171]

well done viking i hope in 6 weeks time i can sit here and type something as good as that ...well proud of you keep it up xxx

[nsd_user663_2981]

Good luck, enjoy that smoke free Summer, I know I will. Just worried about the wasps ......:rolleyes: Cannot blow smoke at them to get rid.

AC never mentioned this in his book

I used to blow smoke at flying b*stards too........

:eek:

[nsd_user663_1733]

Hi Vike

Well done mate Keep ypur chin up. Linda xxxxxxxxxxxx

[nsd_user663_2863]

Well done the Viking!

Many of us seem to have moments that are difficult some way down the road. Some not. Main thing...only thing...is not to go anywhere near actually putting a fag in yer mooth!

After that, time will sort it!

Great to hear you're on the road!

Bill

[nsd_user663_1733]

Hi Bill

How you doing are you in england now or still away. Linda xxxx

[nsd_user663_1655]

woot.

Thanks John, that was a good read! Thanks a bunch for finding that.

Vike.

[nsd_user663_2955]

Hey all, I guess its time I post something, I've been hiding in the background for quite some time now, not really sure why. I am celebrating, but also fear the future. I don't fear it because I think I will want to smoke, but fear it in the sense that I am not sure of how i will be able to view myself. I know that I cannot leave this forum, as I did last quit, and ended up smoking soon after... yes... one puff did it ... I am happily not smoking, but still think about it a lot... partly because of guys at work, and partly because it is getting warmer outside. I wonder if I will ever see myself as a non smoker, or just be an ex smoker for life? I would like to say I can be both... but if I am still thinking here and there about my addiction, then I am an ex smoker (in my head anyways). The cravings have turned to thoughts, they are getting fewer and fewer, and my wife is pumped... but I'm not backing down from seeing myself and the addiction for what we are, intertwined for life. Perhaps in ten years I will look back at these posts and laugh that I was all confuzzled about a technicallity, when the only thing that matters is that I am still not smoking... but its the technicallities that get into my head, and dwindle and spin and create confusion and drive me batty. Things like this are like hearing "safety dance" on the radio, then having to get through a meeting at work. "last years financial curve... we can leave your friends behind, cause if your friends don't dance... " Its never a good thing. I don't even think I want this answered, as its kind of a hypothetical question. I will sidebar though, and congratulate everyone on this forum that is sticking to their guns, and beating the thing we all came to hate So proud of us all! Heres hoping we all can be smoke free friends years from now, even if we aren't here at all! ( i know i'll never forget about a lot of people here... its kind of like being a P.O.W. ... and getting set free, and you all are the people that are helping me travel through the unknown jungle to freedom... i know... crappy metaphor... but meh... I think its time to go for a run. Yep... definetly. high fives to everyone.... you all rock!

The Norseman in the Background.

Hey Vike, i know this thread is a couple of days old but just wanted to say hi and well done mate, two months approaching fast!!

Not many Team FM members logging in these days (myself included) but its good to know how everyones getting on.

Dont be a stranger!!!