Let me please introduce myself....

[nsd_user663_2367]

Hey fellow posters… I would like to take a minute to introduce myself

Today I pass the 2-week mark.. This is important for me because this is about the time I have stumbled the last few attempts.

I am trying again and trying now for a few reasons

I have smoked about a pack a day +- for over a decade and smoked socially for years before that... second hand since birth. I have quit a bunch of times. Once for almost 6 months. I always end up going back due to some stressful event that causes a I just don’t give a f*** attitude .

Right now I am under a lot of stress….

I have family stress, my job has gone south as I have a retarded new boss hired in above me that I hate and workers who are USELESS , I am broke because I am paying rent in one city and a mortgage in another the house I am supposed to move into has turned into a DIY home improvement nightmare worthy of a TV show. I am supposed to be looking for a job in the new city but haven’t had time and cant live in the house anyway…. Its more like camping right now. So basically I work all week in a crap job and work all weekend on my crap house. My closest friends have done things recently to either make me worry deeply about them or be angry or some combination of both…. And all this was BEFORE I decided to quit… so why quit now…

First I was feeling really crappy and got a nasty cold with a bronchial cough I could not shake… second I was so pissed at everyone already and chain smoking myself to nausea so I figured it was doing me no good anyway… I might as well rock the anger and have at it clearly the smoking was not mitigating the stress anyway…. Also I did this neighborhood clean up thing and the cig buts were so disgusting (quit the next day) also as previously mentioned BROKE.

I am going Cold Turkey… was planning on getting the gum but I got so confused in the store and just walked out and said screw it also that stuff is expensive….

Wow that all came out really negative… I m not such a bad guy really just a bit overburdened right now and have to keep a game face on all day  and hold things together.

Anyway that’s my story right now… 2 weeks and a day no cigarettes lots of anger but that was pretty much there already just easier to conceal.

[nsd_user663_2278]

Kenzo -

First things first WELCOME to the forum - this place is a god send for ppl like us and it has helped me get as far as i am now! Without my guys and gals on here i would have given in on day 3!

Secondly WELL DONE! you dont sound negative - you sound determined! Keep with it

I know how you feel tho, today and yesterday i have felt really ratty, and i shouldnt have (Bro's just got engaged, should be happy times!) but it's mainly because i do not know how to channel my bad moods anymore, i used to just chain smoke!

Anyway as my high school musical lot would say "we're all in this together!" feel free to moan, rant, rave and ask for help !

[nsd_user663_2318]

Kenzo

First and foremost I want to welcome you to the forum! I too decided to quit because of getting sick with bronchitus way too may times from a simple cold or allergy. I will say that this forum has helped me so much in the past few weeks. It is great for support, advice, venting, and now and then a good chuckle that we all need in this time of need! Stay with us here, and stay strong. We all can do this if we stick together. Things will get better for you, it just takes time. Just think of quitting as one less thing to worry about money wise! A penny saved is a penny earned! Hang in there! we can beat this demon!!

Day 23 for me!

Not smoked for: 0Y 3W 1D 3H 59M not smoked: 221 Cigarettes. Saving me £ 59.85. I will now live longer by: 0Y 0W 0D 17H 44M. I Quit on the:. Monday, October 01, 2007 6:00:26 AM. Download This Quitmeter free from stayfagfree.com

[nsd_user663_2367]

thanks for the good words...

I realized I should have posed this in the "reasons" forum oh well.... concentration not my strong point right now...

Anyway. Today Day 15 I managed to make a major deadline at work, on a project I hate without yelling at any of my staff or being too nasty to my boss (fortunately he was out of office... where else would you be on the day the first major project you have "overseen" since you came to a company?)

This is the kind of day that could easily set me back so I am happy I was able to not smoke or rip off anybodys head... i did come close though:eek:

[nsd_user663_2142]

Well Hello and Welcome to the forum! Good job ~ you have come a long way and you have stuck with it even during your terrible time. Stick with it all the way - you are doin' great!