Well folks I owe it to you all to be totally honest. I smoked. There I said it. I have no excuses but I would like to explain a little as to why it happened.
As most of you know I was taking Zyban . This was ok in the beginning ,but on thursday started giving me serious headaches and dizziness. I contacted my dr who told me to stop taking them immediately. Being on my own and responsible for my 13 yr daughter I did as told. Anyway as you know I was pretty stressed yesterday with the hot water tank but I somehow managed to keep it all together. I woke this morning ( craving a cig) to find my cat ( who is nearly 18yrs old bless her) had been poorly in the night and had puked all over the conservatory. I then received a worried phone call from hubby in the usa cos our darling daughter (unbeknown to me ) had texted him telling him that herself and Mummy missed him desperately and would he please fly home but mummy wouldn't tell him cos she was brave. How crap do you think I felt then? ok so smoking is no answer b ut at the moment its alot more appealing than a bottle of gin ! (not that I even like gin) Well to sum up I caved BUT I fully intend to try again soon. Thanks for everyones support especially Buffy,Little Sue and wolfy So sorry I let you all down.