The Queen is too tired to lift her crown

[HipHopQueen]

I'm feeling tired thinking about the next two weeks. I have so much to do and so little time . If you don't hear from me much after this week, it's because of school. I've been tired in general. I'm trying to think if it is no more than usual. Is increased tiredness obvious or will it become more when I have to start dialysis. How did those working and doing dialysis feel? I hear some people are wiped out by it. Is it most people or just some? I have a feeling that will be me. Ugh. But I know the alternative and know to be thankful for it all. I am writing while the arm is vibrating away. Good I know.

I hope that the sun was shining in your kingdom as it was in mine today. Lots of great sunshine for this little gray struck town. I know I'll get through the next two weeks, it's just it's going to take a lot of effort and I mean a lot. Sometimes I think why did I take on school at this level when I could have and still could stop, but I know that I would regret stopping. I'll go until I finish or have to stop.

I love working and I would hate to have to stop that too. I think in part it keeps me sane. The whole ball of wax does really. I think all and all I would like to find more peace over all of my health stuff. I know being here, talking to family, talking to my counselor are all so so needed.

Now to go get more work done or put my head on a pillow The Queen must rest.

[Dora86]

The best thing I find is to take each day as it comes. Try breaking down the following two weeks into smaller sections, it might seem more manageable and less tiring. Try not to over think the effects dialysis will have on you, in truth you don't know till you're doing it

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Queen, you sound like a lovely, spirited fighter! Good for you. Yes, things get harder before they get easier. You will be tired for a little while and then you will find that you have energy again. I don't know if life ever really goes back to normal. I guess we establish a new normal. I wish you blessings in all of your endeavors! Stay 💪!!!

[Darlenia]

Oh Dora. Take each day at a time. Simply do the best you can, then let it go. This community is always here for you to help carry you over the rough spots in your journey.

[drmind]

Listen graduate school is not for dummies, but did you ever realize how studying is a major distraction? And, you're doing it with other major distractions. Wow, talk about multi-tasking! You'll never forget these days, but please dont give up. Do what you can with the studies to pass and remember I think you'll be able rest and/or take your books with you once dialysis starts. Think positive that you'll have more energy and less worry as things progress. Straighten out that crown and try to de-stress a little. We're all here for you.

[RhenDutchess123]

When we hit bottom...the only place to go is up...and climbing back up the hill is always slower...but every step gets you there...

Let Go and Let God....He is really good at this !!

[LeesKees_NJ]

I hate dialysis but it makes me feel so much better! Once the toxins start leaving your body you will notice the difference. At least I did. My energy level immediately began rise. My blood pressure has started to drop, they have already reduce some of my meds. I didn't realize how sick I really was. You will make it through these next couple weeks. Be kind to yourself and take it day by day. Sending positive energy your way!

[HipHopQueen in reply to LeesKees_NJ]

Thank you. I will definitely do my best. I put a lot into school to mess up now is not an option. Healthwise I look forward to more energy. I know I will hate it too but it is what it is. 🙂and as some one else said it beats the alternative.