I had a pretty positive start to my journey....4lbs in 4 weeks slow and steady....last week I completed all the exercise I planned and I felt good. This week I've gone into a tailspin of no exercise (back has been sore and stiff), overeating, binging and poor lifestyle choices.....alcohol, late nights, working late at work....no relaxation, yoga.
I'm bewildered because I cannot fathom what the trigger for this is, I was feeling really positive and pleased with my progress.
I'm ashamed and its taken all my effort to post as usually I would have kept quiet about such behaviour and emotions. Im also ashamed because compared to others here i have it easy and have no excuse to behave like this.
I'm fearful of what the scales will say....because I know they may trigger a worse response of either more overeating or the opposite where I feel like I've got to somehow catch up. In my heart I know that if I just pick myself and continue where I left off I should be ok .....but there's part of me that wants to give up until after Christmas somehow let myself off the hook....another part wants to restrict and almost punish myslef and get back on track with losing a stone before Christmas......how do I find and stick to the middle ground when I'm feeling such emotional turmoil?