I have just inhaled food like you wouldn't believe, I wasn't even hungry but I wanted to eat and I'm ashamed to admit that I did. I'm trying to pinpoint what the trigger was and I have made 2 observations.
1. I had a controlled over indulgence day on New Year's Eve, I counted everything and gained 3.5lbs that was not shifting quickly enough for me. Got into the mindset of "if I'm going to gain 3.5lbs I want to properly earn it" because I know I didn't deserve that big of a gain from my New Years Eve celebrations, a lb was deserved by not 3.5. I've found the last 2 weeks hard and I am truly fed up of relosing the same few lbs over and over again. While I understand that over eating is going to make the situation worse it didn't stop me from eating, which is the stubborn part of my personality winning out.
2. Stress and worry. I work in a school and I am very worried about returning to work on Monday with the rising cases and this new varient that spreads more easily amongst children. All the negativity online about the pleas to keep schools closed is stressing me out too. While I personally think they should close I understand others feel very differently. No one wins in this mess but on Monday I'm back in a high risk environment with 2 issues that put me on the clinically vulnerable list. I'm usually pretty good at managing my stress but the worry really got to me today.
Sat here now feeling sick and a bit woozy from the sudden instakes of sugar. I don't think I'm done for the night either. Disappointed in myself but hoping from realising these 2 triggers that I can avoid such emotional eating in the future.