I've never posted on anything like this before but now it is time.
For 8 years now from 15-23 I've suffered from flushed and very red skin around my cheeks (just either side of my nose) going up between my eyebrows, as well as on my temples and chin, but is slightly milder.
On top of that the affected areas get very dry kind of bitty/flakey bits of skin, and a lot of moisturisers tend to irritate the redness in getting rid of the dryness.
I've visited my GP in the past who diagnosed me with acne rosacea for which he prescribed acea gel. Which didn't work. To be fair I only tried it for like a couple of days But when applying it after washing my face it really stings, and then drys my face up so I have to use moisturiser again which in turn irritates it.
I then visited Sk:n, who diagnosed me with seborrhoeic dermatitis. Prescribing me with Elidel Pimecrolimus cream, along with using alphosyl and nizoral shampoos. This felt like the thing that had worked the best and I felt great about my skin.
Unfortunately time passed and it came back. And I couldn't afford another £100.00 trip to a private dermatologist so went back to the GP.
Every time I go to the GP and try to explain the above they say that the only thing that they can do is prescribe the medicine they see fit - not elidel - so now (for the past 48 hours) I've been using acea gel again and Epimax moisturiser. Again I feel like this is wrong but I'm going to give it more time. Luckily and finally the GP has referred me to the dermatologist, as urgent, due to the way it effects my working and social life, which it does, massively. No one understands what it feels like to be constantly looking at other people's faces on the train thinking 'they are so lucky'. Looking only at people faces in the area where I'm affected, thinking they're only looking at my affected areas thinking to themselves 'wtf why is this guy so red'. Family, friends and girlfriends have told me that 'it's not that bad', 'don't be so silly just forget it', 'don't think about it be positive and happy', all of which I agree with but it's not that easy. Every time I look in to the mirror I don't look in to my eyes, at my hair, anything really apart from my skin. I know I'm suffering from a deep anxiety about it and I feel helpless and hopeless and alone.
My skin is super flushed right now and I had to miss work on Monday to go to the GP because my anxiety was so bad after the flair up. (I believe the flair up was caused by using dermol which I don't usually use).
I guess I just want some advice on things to do to help it. Advice on medical products or even my symptoms and a diagnosis. If anyone wants me to send pictures I'm happy to. I've got some reaaaaal disgusting ones waiting, ones that I actually sent my boss to try and convince her I'm not just being silly haha. Anyway I digress, all comments are welcome thanks for reading my sob story.
Yours skincerely (see what I did there)