life could be so simple

[Cherryfizz34]

Thanks       deValentin

Why make drama in your life?

Life getting controversial where you live due to the past?

It happens to a lot of people

I read a book on a guy who has bipolar disorder - made some mistakes in the city he was in - moved and now because of unburdening - dude's successful

I was watching an episode of a detective show about a cop and his dog.

In this episode the main suspect is a black widow. Her third husband dies under mysterious circumstances.

Main suspect - written all over her face.

They get her in a room and her story is:

after her second husband dies - from jumping off a building - where she took 25 minutes to call 911-

She looks like she collects for insurance.

So she left that city, took some courses and got into broadcasting

simple

simple simple simple - no drama - no resistance

turns out she didn't kill her third husband

her assistant who was having a one way affair with him did.

Don't fight the old - I don't have a choice at this point

I have to blend the old with the new - it's

unburden myself

un burden myself - these people's stuff - you know what I want to say, "Deal with the consequences of your actions - I'm no saint - I'm not going to take your sins for your - by debilitating my health - deal with the consequences of your actions."

You know when you look at people who don't learn?

blame blame blame blame

blame me

take care of me

blame me

take care of me

"I own you"

I read on a WhatsApp group "I captured you"

what I would like to say is:

"No you did not capture me. This is easier than doing the hard thing. Do I have self worth today? No. So you win. You did not "capture me". I gave up."

What I think of the morons who use the word "capture"

"You don't have the emotional intelligence to look into your own damn health - you weren't taught to growing up and you just leech onto things. You have no intelligence."

I recently got an ultrasound and a blood test back and looked at a youtube video of myself from a year ago. It's not worth it. When people make fun of you. Call you ridiculous - when you don't feel understood - it takes a serious toll on your body.

Is it my responsibility this person is an idiot? No

is it affecting my health? Yes

Do I have proof and a record it's affecting my health - YES

Do I tell the right people - so some moron doesn't tell them -

Has this been a cycle that I have to do consistently ?

Dude's right - I have changed - I can't go back - that $600 group

it's not my fault - there is nothing - we don't - respect the vibe of the group

if I'm not going to be understood - don't put myself in a position to be made fun of

some people won't get me unless their buddy explains them to me in words that make sense to them.

see where this $600 group goes but don't put content in there that will just come back to haunt me.

update:

Things that I blew up about this morning - aren't true. But I felt better getting it off my chest to figure out it wasn't true and what I was complaining about I was doing it to myself.