Gaslighting

[Zen108]

I feel like my psychologist acted inappropriately a month ago. He apologized for his words, but looking back it felt like gaslighting. He treated me like a buddy instead of a patient. For a month I sunk to an anxious, depressed low. I've crawled out of the hole I was in through hobbies and entertainment. I want to feel happy and young. God, help me to find stability and joy.

[TomFed]

Don't be so self-centered! I know it's sometimes very hard to not be run by ego and obsessive mind when you have to deal with mental disorder like OCD, but trust me - losing a lil bit of that self-centeredness will bring you bits of genuine peace. Psychologist apologised so you have two choices - move on or find another therapist. Don't ruminate about the past.

[Zen108 in reply to TomFed]

I want to be less self-centered, but the scared little kid inside of me is looking to be soothed. Maybe I need to get back to volunteering. Maybe that would get me out of my head.

[TomFed in reply to Zen108]

You are right about it. I also find working and helping others one of the best ways to get out of "squirrel in the wheel" ego mindset. Healing from OCD is a complex thing. In one way, we need to give time and love to ourselves to go through the healing journey. On the other hand, sometimes getting out of your mind by paying attention to others heals us even on a deeper level.

[Midori]

Even psychologists can get it wrong sometimes.

Cheers, Midori