Miserable Life

[MarieGold]

Hi Guys,

As you all were very supportive to my mtOCD and I was trying to overcome it but at some time thinking of my inability to overcome this make me worse.Sometimes,I even thinking about why I was living..I try to not think about a thing when I get up it comes in my mind.I try to not see certain thing but it appears infront of me.My life become more worse than I think,I had confidence that I will overcome this mtOCD but as days moveon I lose my hope and faith.I was continuosly praying to god to help me.I am crying daily,I show my anger to my friends,they started hate me but what can I do.I dont know how do I got this problem but it was increasing drastically.

In recent times,I was thinking lot about why do I need to live with this mtOCD,it doesn't make me to live my life then why do I need to live.As I can't go to therapist I dont know what to do

[mel678x]

I don't know what is available to you as far as doctors and therapists in India since I live in the US. I have severe OCD but see a doctor for it, do therapy and take meds for it (SSRIS etc.). OCD is an anxiety illness that has biological roots so it is an illness !!!! There are books and workbooks on it that could at least help a little. In some places online therapy is available. Hang in there !

[Coffeelove4444 in reply to mel678x]

ocd is an illness so the goal should be to manage it not cure it. So true that it has biological roots. Don’t frustrate yourself trying to cure it. The key is to find tools to manage it. Hang in there! You are not alone.

[MarieGold in reply to Coffeelove4444]

So,I want to live with ocd hereafter,how miserable life I am going to have

[Coffeelove4444 in reply to MarieGold]

Keep pushing forward. You will feel better. There are many different forms of therapy out there. It is hard work but you are worth it!! Remember to remind yourself of this

[lml885]

i feel similarly. Im trying to access ERP therapy, do mindfulness, eat less sugar and caffeine, meditate and am thinking of trying brain surgery. Butler university does it for treatment resistant OCD. I also know we judge our thoughts and the more we try to stop them or think we can change them the more we react to them. There are some meditations on OCD, also EMDR therapy and trauam therapy can help. I’m in this fight with you.

[MarieGold]

Thank you all for your support

[Mcfly64]

Hello MarieGold. Why can’t you go to a therapist?

[Sallyskins]

This sort of OCD can certainly be managed and controlled. It's important to challenge the magical thinking as much as you can - go against it where possible.

Try getting some self help books - they can be really useful if you can't get to a therapist. I always suggest Overcoming Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and The OCD Workbook because they have helped me. They have exercises you can adapt to your own OCD.

The more you push away unwanted images and intrusive thoughts in your mind, the more they will pop up without your consent. The trick is to allow them in as far as possible - acknowledge them but don't question them or argue with them. After a bit, they go away of their own accord. It's trying to push them away or questioning them that makes them bounce back!

Try speaking to your friends and explaining to them what OCD is, and that you don't mean to get angry, but you often feel frustrated. Tell them that you're not angry with them, but with the OCD! I'm sure they don't hate you. It's just that OCD can make life difficult for the sufferer, but also for their friends and family.

Although it might be difficult to cure OCD, it can be managed so that you can have a good, enjoyable, successful life - not a miserable one!