crisis need help urgent someone reply please

[jejdjsjsjsjjss]

hi

once again undiagnosed cant get help till 2025 see my previous posts for context.

i am miserable all day this illness makes me focus in thoughts and numbers and then goes and tells me i dint have it.

i cant get any help because of my parents as i tried telling them when i was 12 and they said id just seen it on the internet and wanted to have it. whenever i bring it up jokingly (in attempt for them to notice) they say i do make up some funny things and dont address it. my fear is that if i tell them they will address it once and chose to ignore it like they did when i had anorexia at 14/15. i am so tired of this disorder i got my first symptom (just right ocd) at seven years old before ik what ocd was what seven year old fakes that???

this disorder has made my life hell for the past 9, nearly 10 years and i am fucking exhausted i dont know what to do i feel so alone and evil. i know i need help but what if its not ocd?

how do i tell my parents?? i cant say “i think i have ocd” as they wont believe me either they notice or i have a complete breakdown bc thye havent noticed and tell them to receive aboht a week of support from them and then the problem will be “fixed”.

i fucking hate this i am miserable and borderline suicidal what do i do??? what if its not OCD and i am just a monster? what do i do i have no one to talk to i am at fucking breaking point and idk what to do anymore.

[jejdjsjsjsjjss]

like does it ever get fucking better?

[PaperTigers]

I'm so sorry that your family isn't more supportive. I know you're struggling but there are people here who understand what you're going through and you can always come here to talk until you're able to get additional help. Please hang in there!

[TomFed]

OCD is a very treatable disorder. You should get help NOW as it seems you're in quite a desperate condition. Look for ERP trained OCD therapists in your area or online. There is no need to wait till 2024, be more persuasive with your parents if they try to downplay this. I've had OCD from the very early childhood, I can relate what you are going through. It might sound harsh, but it is up to you to find the right help and start healing as you aren't a kid anymore..

Trust me, as it comes from my own harsh experience, majority of people without OCD don't have any idea how it is to have it, heck many of the mental health professionals can't get it if they are not specifically trained to deal with OCD. So I always encourage fellow OCDers to see OCD specialised therapists when it is possible, saves us from more suffering, as well saves money and time.

[FirstResponder23]

hi,

I’m sorry to hear you are struggling so much with OCD. I have felt that way many times. OCD makes you question every little thing and that’s what you have to remember. That people without OCD do not wonder if they have OCD. It is trying to make you guess how you are feeling/what is going on. This happens to me frequently. And even though I know this about my OCD, it still becomes loud and tries to get me when I’m not paying attention to it. You always have support on here.

[Meatloafy]

If you can't get help from your parents, try looking into online resources. Here's one potential option, which has a bunch of free materials you can go through. It's a somewhat new approach, but it might be helpful. Otherwise you may be able to find other options (such as those from a more traditional approach to OCD therapy). Hope that helps!

icbt.online/resources/

[SlothQueen23]

Just don't tell them it's OCD tell them you're struggling with your mental health and you need help BAD or you think you'll do something serious. Tell them you want help and be serious. I think you might need some emergency inpatient stay. That will get you help faster too medication wise anyway. Best of luck to you, please please hang in there!!

[Mcfly64]

You need to plead with your parents to help you. You need to do it now. You have ocd.

[jejdjsjsjsjjss in reply to Mcfly64]

just found out at 16 i can make my own doctors appointment so will do that

[Natureloverpeace]

I am sorry your parents aren’t taking you seriously about this. ERP by a licensed mental health provider who specializes in OCD and is appropriately trained to provide ERP is the gold standard treatment for OCD. The IOCDF has a resource directory to help you find a therapist. Go to iocdf.org and click on Find Help. They also do livestreams every Tuesday and Wednesday which you may find helpful. They are recorded if you can’t catch them live. You can find the schedule by clicking on Resources and Support . If your parents say no to you getting help from an OCD specialist you can get free help from ocdchallenge.com which is funded by the Peace of Mind Foundation. It doesn’t replace treatment but it’s an interactive website where you can learn the skills needed to overcome OCD . There is also cbtschool.com which was founded by Kimberley Quinlan, an OCD specialist. It consists of 18 video tutorials on ERP. It doesn’t replace treatment with an OCD specialist either but it can be helpful when you don’t have access to an OCD specialist. OCD Stories podcast may be helpful too.

OCD attacks what we value and instills doubt in those areas and ourselves. Thoughts are just thoughts, nothing more. Thoughts don’t equal actions. Having a taboo thought or intrusive thought doesn’t make you a monster.