Okay so until recently, I had been able to manage my anxiety and OCD pretty well. I was able to do things like leave my room, draw, turn on my game console, leave the house, etc without giving into compulsions and mental rituals.
However ever since I lost my job, my nasty OCD habits have been catching up to me. A few days ago, I had turned on my game console and started to play my game, until one thought that I dread came into my head and made me anxious and uncomfortable. Whats worse is that it made me think this "If I keep playing my game and finish it, this bad event will happen". Since then I've been avoiding it. I know avoidance isn't the answer but its been tough not to do it lately.
Even worse is that, my room just got renovated so it also made me think "If the first game I beat in my newly decorated room is the one I think will cause my most feared event, it will DEFINITELY happen for sure".
Apologies if this made little sense to anyone but its what I'm going through and I also wanted to keep it vague. What should I do? Should I just go back to playing my game anyway and stop avoiding? Please don't tell me to go to ERP because I can't wait til I get an appointment with a therapist. I need advice now to stop me doing all this avoiding. Thank you