difficulty in accepting

[Tfma]

I keep on having this specific thought that I am not actually experiencing things (that this time of my life right now is not my real life i.e "not accepting or not counting it as real" and that my real life will be the time where i am starting things properly/mindfully/productively. How the hell do I get over this thought and just start accepting my life. I'm just living like a third person in my own life.

[Skjones]

I've been there it a weird feeling I am kinda going through the same thing I've been to the ER 2 times in a week and I am currently bed rest untill I can get the tests they want done. But even though my symptoms are like a wave they come and go I feel like what you are describing is it all in my head is yhis real I hate when existential conundrums happen

[Mcfly64]

Are you getting help or on medication?