Just looking for support as I’m currently going through one of the hardest things I’ve ever dealt with in my life. I’ve always been an extremely cautious person, and valued my health a ton. In the process of fixing my OCD, I’ve learned to take more chances and stop letting fear/small risks stand in my way. Unfortunately, I got a bit too lenient with taking chances.
I had unprotected oral sex with someone I was mutually exclusive with (or so I thought). I knew they had gotten oral cold sores in the past, but I figured the chance of them spreading when not present was virtually non existent. I used to fret over small risks an extreme amount, and decided to let it go for once. It’s been two weeks since my first exposure, and I’ve been experiencing symptoms that all line up with genital herpes. Itchy/tingly feelings in the genital area and buttocks and pain/soreness that extends down the back of my legs. I’m absolutely horrified. I thought it was my OCD in the beginning but its becoming all too real to be. I am terrified for what my future holds, and I need support/advice of how to cope in the meantime (takes 4-6 weeks or more to show on a test). No, I haven’t had any blisters yet, except a pimple that came and went on my lip and a blocked pore on my genital that also came and went — so i assumed they were nothing. Please give me support. My mother is disgusted with my choices, and my ex turned out to be hooking up w other people the whole time and is now spreading lies about me around our workplace — please dont tell me not to “shit where you eat” I’ve heard this expression enough and I can’t go back and change things as much as i wish i could.