Rough few weeks.

[Jackmarsh94]

My anxiety and intrusive thoughts are getting out of hand and I’m really tired and fed up. I keep having the same on going thought that I’m going to stab my partner and I keep telling myself I’m going to be fine , but I have avoided him for two weeks and I’m scared of hurting him and scared I’m going to ruin the relationship we have. My minds telling me I’m going todo it and it’s taking me to the outcome , everything I do day to day my minds questioning it and saying I’m going to hurt him with a knife and I’m terrified to be around him , I keep having all these horrible images in my head , it’s going directly from the thought to the outcome , so I’m not even getting a chance to ignore this and it’s breaking my heart and my relationship. Has anyone got any advice 😓

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Are you working with a therapist/counselor/psychologist who knows how to do Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP)? I'm working on a lot of this right now too because in a relationship you just want to help your partner feel better but from what I understand, getting that type of reassurance just makes the obsessions stronger.

[Greekdude]

I had approximately the same thought with you , my therapist gave an example of how the mind of a normal individual works and how our minds(ocd) work and it was easy for me to let go this negative thought, just go to a therapist and if you cannot surpass it, do ERP

[lavender9201]

Sorry for this difficult time. I suggest reading more about Harm OCD. It is really common. One thing I read in my book about Harm OCD is that those of us with OCD assign a lot of meaning to our intrusive thoughts when they are really meaningless.

Avoiding things, seeking reassurance (like asking, “am I a good person?” or telling yourself “of course I won’t hurt them!”) or doing compulsions such as hiding sharp objects can actually make the harm thoughts feel more important and then they get more stuck in our minds. ERP is very hard but it can help a lot with this.