Checking: Paying Bills

My checking had become severe while paying bills.

The entire process of writing the check, address, putting the stamp.

It involved many times repetitively checking over and over again, if I did not make any mistake.

The entire process is exhausting.

Thus, I decided to check only once, after I am done with the process of paying the bills.

I was able to do the therapy, but later, OCD started replaying in my mind, the process that I went through, creating doubts, that I made a mistake.

I got caught in the trap and did the mental compulsion.

When the doubt comes, it arrives with so much fear, and I just get sucked into ritualizing, and arguing with OCD.

I am trying to just accept the thought and let it be there.

It just keeps popping up in the brain frequently.

OCD is such a tormenting illness, it makes you doubt everything you do.

It creates fearful scenarios in the mind.