Checking by Rereading

It is challenging for me to type posts and replies.

Since I have the checking compulsion.

Whenever I type anything, I fear of making a mistake, and that leads me to go back and do rereading of what I wrote.

In addition, when I am typing emails, I do lots of checking also.

It is usually accompanied by counting rituals, which is to count to a certain number, until it feels "just right", and keep rereading what I typed at the same time.

It is an exhausting process in the end.

By writing these posts and replies, it is like an exposure for me,

since I have to try and resist the compulsions of rereading posts, replies.

I will keep trying to do the therapy.

[Abab123]

Hi I also have a checking compulsion, it usually takes about 45 minutes just to get out of the house . So I really know what you are going through.

I'm in therapy and doing cbt for

my ocd .

Take care and try to get as much help as possible, it will get better with the help from the right people

Good luck

[Aleese]

Hi Desipurple19-

I can relate to you much📌your checking/re-reading compulsions as that was basically one of my OCD’s in therapy. I’d go back and redue my words and it was a lot of anxiety to make it right.

Is this some of what you would do? And sometimes I would just delete the whole email or rip up many cards cause I just couldn’t get it right. It’s harsh and a lot of time wasted isn’t it? I’d feel much safer to write on FB as you can edit or delete : ) But, of course, to turn our back on this kind of torment, we all must not give in. Do not edit, reduing, clarifying, confessing etc and it will weaken our compulsion as with any ocd rituals.

Anyway, I really do understand and oh, I see you are doing exposure which is great! 😊 It’s a working at it for sure. We will fall short as I still do. The therapist I had, gave me a little trinket that says, Perfectly Imperfect. I think I finally get it ha! Best to you and keep in touch-Aleese

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Hi,

Usually, when I reread my emails, I read every single word, to make sure it makes sense,

and I am by mistake did not write something, which hurts anyones feelings.

I know it does not make sense.

Sometimes I am to resist the rereading process completely.

Thanks for your support.