Im so upset

Today was our 1st appointment with the consultant . I have a small cyst in my overies but apparently nothing too worry about . My weight is a big problem , that much off a problem the consultant is writing too my GP to refer me for surgery my BMI is +40. Age is against me aswell , i need too loose the weight but not get any older in the process . My partners sperm is low and has to be re tested and if it is any lower IVF will not even be an option .. back too see the consultant in 3 months too find out the results .... just feel so let down and upset with myself