Dealing with Infertility.?

[Grace-]

Hi I'm new to this.

I've had two failed cycles of ivf icsi on NHS last one ended March 2017 my oh has a low count and we have been ttc for 4 years with not even a hint of a positive test.

I'm struggling coming to terms with us not getting the dream we've always wanted we are both young healthy and finding this so diffcult. Family have had no issues to fall we have lots of kids on both sides but we've just had our turn I feel like we are stuck while everyone moves on around us falling left right and centre. We can not afford a round of ivf without getting in tones of debt how do we get a family with no other options 😞

Looking for some advice and help in what we can do we now.?

[Hidden]

Hi Grace...

Thank you for your courage in posting. I just want to say i know exactly how you feel and have walked the exact same steps as you.

I don't have any answers....

I fluctuate from feeling strong, to feeling utter loss and brokeness. The grief hits you with no warning. And i have no idea what the answers are. But that's ok. For you and me it's still so recent and raw and i guess it takes time.

I have done counselling, read books, talked to great people. Spent time doing lovely things together. And i guess when I'm stronger we will have to navigate another way of becoming parents.

For now i just want to say your not alone....And i feel your sadness and grief. If your local to the northwest let me know if you want to meet up.

Love xxxx

[Grace- in reply to Hidden]

Hi thank you for your response it's such a hard journey I can't keep up with my own emotions and thoughts I can be strong like you say but then I get a announcement or see a baby making the couple a family and wish it could be me and then that's it I'm down and struggle to get back up.

I can't accept that this is just how it's going to be I don't see how my oh having a low count has never got me pregnant in 4 years it's not like he hasn't got any which makes me feel like it's something the must have missed I must have something wrong so I'm going gp I need reasurrence. I feel it's looking impossible for us to be parents.

[Hidden in reply to Grace-]

Hi Grace,

One of the hardest things is not having any answers. When you have been trying for three yrs plus the medical profession just put it down as unexplained infertility. Leaving you with even more unanswered questions. I hope you get a supportive gp and the help you need.

Big hugs x