I haven't written on here for some time, although I have been following other people's blogs and for a while I could say to myself 'that's how I felt', now I'm back to 'that's how I'm feeling'...
I went on a holiday to china to see my friend for a couple of weeks. It was a big thing for me and gave me something to aim for because I had to be responsible for organising myself. It was so good to have something to focus on. Now I'm back and I feel really low, like extreme holiday blues. So far I've spent the whole bank holiday weekend in bed. I'm supposed to meet my friends later but I really don't want to leave the comfort and safety of my bed. I did pop to the shops yesterday but I get really dizzy and faint so I didn't stay long. I realised that I was used to being out and about with my friend on holiday and I relied on her to get us by. It's silly, but the responsibility of looking after myself again seems like too much hard work.
The tears have also started again. I'm going to buy shares in Kleenex I think!!
I was hoping to reduce my meds next month but I think I'll have to stay at this level. Does the battle ever end?!?!