Severe Bout of Depression and Anxiety.

[Rily]

I have muscular dystrophy and the past 3 months have been hell with severe depression and anxiety, where I keep going only because what else do I do. I want to see the world so I’ll just suffer through it. The only reason I could have this is because my condition gets worse with regression. But I’m also a very religious person and believe heavily that my G-d shows signs to me. But also, I basically don’t function but my G-d helps me still feel purpose being here so I just try to help people even though I feel like a walking zombie.

Also wrote this:

It takes out all your drive.

You realize lazy people still have actual motivation.

You feel empty, like a bystander of life.

You just survive day to day.

You eyes scream pain, but no one sees it.

You are a walking zombie trying to stay alive.

You feel alone in a filled auditorium.

You question how you even got through the day.

The blank, zero emotion eyes.

Getting out of bed takes effort.

Nowhere is safe but bed.

Melancholy