Am I being a bit too much?

[rachel_grace]

You know, there are times when life feels so damn unfair to you but you can't do anything about it. Life's been like that to me always. And I hate it. For example, we had a mock un kind of thing at our college and I was one of the liason officers. We had around 3-4 committees and in my committee We had 5-6 liason officers. Liason officers are supposed to pass the chits from the members to judge or other members as they can't talk to each other during the conduct of the meeting. And I was the one liason officer who worked really hard, like I moved around as much as I could and I liked it. I enjoyed it. So I obviously thought during the anonymous chits session after the committee atleast one person would appreciate my work. But no, that was the biggest mistake I ever did. Not one person, not one chit, either anonymously or directly ever appreciated it. But the pretty liason officer who came in just for show, was there among those notes. I don't want to be called pretty or stuff, I just wanted to be appreciated for the work I did. But pretty privilege is still a thing I guess. But then again I feel guilty. Perhaps I am victimising myself for attention. Because I definitely enjoyed my work. Why would some words matter? Maybe attention is what I'm seeking. And I feel terrible for being this way.