It went scary again

[winternight]

I was happy since few days, like everything is getting better. And then suddenly something happens again, I get to face it again.. and my feelings take a 360 degree turn in a second. That fear, anxiety, past thoughts, dropped on me all at once. And I am not able to make myself feel better since then, since last night, I don't want to wake up. I want to cry, and feel extremely lonely. I am scared right now. I need someone. I have to pretend at home, can't share anything with them. The day seems so long, and dark, and I am unable to do any task.