Idk how to feel

[Curry223]

I haven’t been on here in awhile. I’ve been masking my anxiety and depression with happiness doing summer activities and keeping myself busy. I feel empty…

[012703060610]

So I can say, I have had anxiety for years dating back to early teens. Driven to be perfect by my parents. In order to cope with my anxiety, I spent 20 years after college just adding more and more to my plate as a coping strategy for anxiety. I think distraction is a good solution at times, but it can't be THE only solution. After 20 years of demanding so much out of myself, I got COVID and my life will never be the same. The stress of work during covid and then getting a severe case has brought out several autoimmune disorders. I wish someone would have been wise enough....even my therapist....to say you are simply hiding from your anxiety versus treating it. If you are comfortable sharing more here or through PM, please do. We are in this all together taking it one day at a time.

[Curry223 in reply to 012703060610]

I’m glad I’m not alone. I agree that there’s a difference between hiding it and treating it. I find it’s difficult finding the right solution but it’ll all get figured out.

[Curry223]

I’m am on Meds and have a therapist. Yes i was triggered by a passed memory but I can’t seem to shake it. I’ll definitely talk to someone about it to clear my head!

Thank you!