LIFE SUCKS

I feel like I was meant to be alone, I've been single since I was 16, now I'm 18 whats the problem with me, why does everybody have long ass relationships and I don't. I was meant to be depressed for the rest of my life, I wasn't even supposed to happen, I was a complete accident, I'm ugly, dumb, crazy, annoying. I get told I'm a nice person, I get told that people don't understand why I barely have friends, why I'm depressed, have anxiety, get bullied. I mean I try my best to be nice to people even when they are rude to me, when someone asks me for something and that person is always rude to me and putting be down I do it, I don't know why but I do. When someone asks for food or candy or money or anything I have I give it to them because I don't want them to be mad at me. I don't want them to try to hurt me. I don't know thats just me. but i'm the girl who goes out of my way to help people, loves somebody even when they hate me, falls in love too fast, make my friends laugh even when I'm not trying to, sings in the shower, talks to myself, screams at the t.v when I get mad at someone who I don't like on the show, or someone dates the wrong guy. cries when I see someone else crying. gets sad at random times and don't know why. loves hanging out with little kids. Loves to go shopping, and doesn't care how much I spend. terrified of swimming from almost drowning at the beach last year for being stupid and jumping waves with my cousin and went way to far out. who is scared to go ask the worker at the store where something is so I have to bring someone with me. I don't know what this is, it was on my mind and I had to say it. This probably makes no damn sense, but whatever.

[Cliffhanger70]

You are at an age when being with someone is a big deal, I sure you don't need to tell you that being single is better than just being in a relationship because it is a thing, you need to find out what you need from a relationship, and what it might look like, but enjoy being single for the moment. And spending time doing things you like, there are a lot off comprise to be made when you do find him, I would say be patient.As humans we have many emotions and we want to present well, you working out how to deal with then while feeling really frustrated, be patient with yourself, you sound like a lovely person, I glad you find the t, v to get annoyed at.

Good plan

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I do know what I want in a relationship and I tell the person I date and if a guy/girl likes me and wants to be in a relationship after a day I tell them we need to get to know eachother more and talk more because it wouldn't work out if that happened I tell them I barely know them and I've been in relationships like that before and its not worth it

[Redfox9]

I used to feel the same way about being single, and I used to blame myself for it. I had this experience where I wrote a full page of my anomalies, most of which were incorrect because I was trying hard to find flaws in myself.

As time passed and I began to think about that list, I realized that everything on it was written under depression and had nothing to do with my own personality. I converted the anomaly list into an improvement list. My perception of myself changed; I was no longer a bad guy, but rather a guy who wanted to better himself. I started working on it. Sometimes we say negative things about ourselves because we are depressed. But if you don't mean anything bad to anyone, if you help people and try to make them happy, you're a beautiful person. Just remember not to be too hard on yourself; you deserve some rest and love.

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