Mental health and all the shit that comes with it..

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I have suffered from mental health issues for around 20+ years and thought I could handle it myself but in 2006 my brother suddenly died and my mental health went into meltdown my head went dark and I took a massive overdose I was found and had to be put into an induced coma to try and save my life.. it worked. But since then it's been hard and me being me tried again to sort myself and keep my mental health quiet and I did for years until last month when my head went dark again I know it was happening but never said anything to anyone instead I slashed my wrist that deep I lost nearly 4 pints of blood in around 2 mins but again I was found and rushed to hospital operated on then shipped out to a mental hospital called swallownest court where I spent 4 weeks with hardly any interaction with doctors or supposedly so called professionals ( who looked that young they wasn't even shaving yet) given 1 tablet a day and left alone. Then last week was kicked out and put into shared care accommodation..unreal... but the sad thing in all this is they didn't give a toss and that's wrong cos I didn't get the help I needed... will I self harm again YES DEFINITELY will I probably try and kill myself again YES PROBABLY.... wht I'm trying to say is sooner or later my head will go dark side again and I will hurt myself so bad or even worse I will hurt someone else but the sad thing is that there is so many people like me or worse that's not getting the help or support we desperately want and need. But even more worrying and upsetting is that when it gets so dark in our heads that we end our own life cos we feel there's no other way out all that will happen is that we will just be another statistic that no ones cares about except the loved ones that are left behind to ask that simple question why didnt my father/mother/son/daughter or other family get the help they so rightly deserved. But in most cases the help always comes to late....

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I just want to tell you that I also was sent to the hospital for suicide ideation. You are right! What a joke! I and other people had to wait in chairs for a bed for 48 hours. Then when you get a bed, it is a plastic bed. They give you meds, feed you tons and tons of food and make you take a class that I refused to take. Only talked to a psyc one time. I was there for 10 days. They don't address anything that happened to you. Very impersonal. I don't know how things go in the UK, but they have all this crap on TV about how they will help you with mental health. If you have good health insurance, you get your own personal psyc and therapist, but if you have HMO, the therapists are terrible. You have to call lots of therapists in your book that don't exist anymore. I found out that they publish these books with ghost therapists, meaning that these insurance companies fill the book up, so you will initially pick their insurance company. It's all about money, like everything else. My advise to you is, just get on an antidepressant that works for you. It will help you feel better. Good luck.

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Been on more antidepressants than i can count and most of them was a placebo i was treated like a guinea pig for months nothing helps even after weeks of taking these meds I still go dark but to get the right treatments I'ts impossible .... no ones cares I cannot afford private shrinks and the NHS is that busy and that strung out and struggling its takes weeks or months just to get that appointment and sadly in 80% of cases it comes to late I have no one no family to call on it's just me...

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I can definitely empathize with you. You are right. Even if you get an appointment, it's a long wait. I am also older and completely alone. I have no family, no friends that care really. It's a very hard life we live. I wish you lived closer to me, but we can keep in touch through this site if you want. Very nice to talk to you.

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Yes would like that thanks..

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I am here for you. I understand.

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you need to seek psychiatrist private even immediately- you need to get out what troubling you deep down. And release emotions in more positive way. Please pay for fee sessions and if you like more otherwise seek another professional psychiatrist

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I am sorry, I just realized that you are 51 years old. Sorry to include you as being old and alone. You have the rest of your life ahead of you. Good luck always.

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Lol.thsnks

[Lizzo30]

Could you request to go on a waiting list to see a therapist ?Life is so tough but it isnt forever it will end for us all one day

I hope and pray you find the strength to get by day by day without hurting yourself