Samething just a different DAY

[Bermuda72]

Lately I've been waking up with sad thoughts & I mean it's a terrible feeling to not wake up happy but happy to be alive it's like living in a dream.world that keeps playing over & over I'm on medication but sometimes I think the meds makes it's worse, & that's not the worse part, the worse is your family dont really see the severity of depression they continue to talk to me as if I'm 100% my old self but I cant be mad at them because in a since that's probably a good thing but inside my head the thoughts screaming!

[Hidden]

Aww I so know how you’re feeling, it’s dreadful waking up to a brand new day facing the same old crap, anxiety takes a hold on us creating all these feelings. Hopefully the sun will shine for us and the dark will pass 💗 big hugs to you x

[Hidden]

Your family, like mine must be your own worse memory, and that can take a great deal of work to sort out to fulfill a new future. It can be a problem when we need to move to a different area to possibly start again. It is never easy to fulfill that wish, especially if you do not have a new type support group, are there any Day Centres or Centres to meet people who suffer like you, with Depression or Anxiety. To be with people who suffer as well will help you approach your concerns and move on, in a way you need support, at the same time listening to others concerns helps everyone to move on from your problem while giving strength to those who are lacking as well

You do not say how long you have been having treatment, (Therapy) or how long you have been taking medications, these drugs have problems in the early days, you need to allow upwards of six weeks to feel any real benefit, be patient.

If you can identify what is causing your Depressions you can address your concerns in small bites of one concern, when you get stuck you move onto the next problem, then do the same. A great deal of what bothers generally more than one concern, the more complex are the problems you are suffering from the more radical you may need in sorting out those problems. Possibly take actions to undertake hobbies, although personally I call them diversions, this will help you divert your thoughts to an enjoyment and lift a negative mood

Whatever you try we are here to give support and move on.

BOB

[Bermuda72 in reply to Hidden]

You said a mouthful when I moved here I had my guy, my 2 friends 1 friend well x we fell out because my nephew was killed & I was going thru grieving & I did it in the wrong way with alchohol & was hung over terribly 1 day she wanted me to drive a hour & half to come get her How was I going to drive when I couldn't even get out the bed she stopped talking th o me, me & my guy broke up my other friend moved to Alabama so I felt alone my family that lives here I dont deal with them they like drama, so now i feel alone I'm thinking about moving back where i came from

[Hidden in reply to Bermuda72]

When we loose someone we can take time to get sorted, it is hard especially if you had a good relationship. Many people because of the loss can take to the bottle for a time, that is self destructive . Most people settle a little and begin to heal, although it does take time to function after a loss such as you explain

Personally friends should be able to help you, not make matters worse, You will move on and meet other people. Be kind to yourself, it takes time to grieve

BOB

[Bermuda72 in reply to Hidden]

Thank u so much that's how I seen it but in your words,

[lifted]

I totally I gree I don't want to wake up again tommorow feeling like I do it's horrible and I feel drained .I just want to be happy and Christmas is not nice when u feel low but I will some how put a face on , ask help with the dinner then at the night just go up to my room , if it gets to much I just take myself upstairs it's sad and I feel selfish but until my moods lifts I just need to do thid

[lifted]

Don't think.my reply related to yours sorry but I just wanted to say sorry about your nephew and then you and ur partner break ing up , and yes at the time we need a drink it helps with the pain., For a time .then when you are in that better place you can go back to Alamba and follow your dream ,!! I have never been there but a place I would love to visit , I will put it on my bucket list take care and God's blessings xx