Anxiety is wilding

[Against_the_current]

I'm worrying about going back to university city and my roommates and starting to work and leaving sis and mom and agoraphobia and supermarkets there are away and expensive. And also about a concert there for 3 days and probably having to have sis there these days where is exactly my interview and my wild roommates are there. I would be so anxious, i wouldn't be able to make a good impression at the interview and all the anxiety would be in vain and i will worry where to be and this worries me alot plus my agoraphobia and getting comfortable in new places. I'm having acid reflux from anxiety,acting weird, trouble communication, can't act normal. I'm just Overthinking probably? Was i better there? Maybe i m just Overthinking and i was actually better mentally when i ilved there and got worse coming here. I can't act normal with my parents and sis, i can't text normally, having acid reflux, thinking i shouldn't have applied and stayed here

Edit:Now sis is nervious and i feel like it was stupid to worry and maybe want to rush back to university city. Maybe i aws better there?

[SoporRose]

Yes, you were better there. I think you're right that being home has twisted your thinking. You need to go back.

This might not be a good time for your sister to come, especially for a three-day concert. You need to focus on your interview and getting some calm back into your life and your soul. Missing the concert and the visit with you will be disappointing for you both, but your health has to be restored. You matter.

Ruth

[Against_the_current in reply to SoporRose]

You're right. Espessially now my mom's back on her abusive behaviour. And i'm panicing. I want to run back there asap. And just focus on myself

[SoporRose in reply to Against_the_current]

And that is the right thing to do. The longer you stay, the more you will deteriorate. Go back to where you belong. If, for reasons I cannot imagine, that turns out to be the wrong choice, you can always go home again. Tell yourself and it will be easier to leave. But please don't let yourself get destroyed when you have made so much progress and shown so much strength. Leave as soon as you can. At least, that what I think you should do.

Is your therapist out of hospital and available to you again?

Ruth