Again a nightmare about mom and dad. Every single night i have them. I wake up at 7am. This night i had a dream of going back home and mom telling me (as her manipulation game again) she wants to live in the other apartment where dad and the baby are and sis and me are trying to tell her the apartment we have is also good and she goes mad and says "You're always at his side, go live with him".
Then the dog started barking and i woke up. I opened the door and it came and layed in my room. I feel bad i was complaining from it and also it's visit is coming to an end.
I'm really bothering myself thinking when to go back home. My sister is finishing with school for the summer on 1st July and i wanted to see her before she gets a habit of chilling without me, every summer we have been together, i don't want it to change. But i'm scared to go back home. I have nightmares every night about home. Every night i chase trains in my sleep because i have nightmares of going back home and mom being a jerk and me wanting to come back here. Also i want to start working at the student appreciantice program because it's my last year and probably next year is gonna be in the university not online and i won't have time. Also i would have to be here next year If this happens. And to start a job i need to be here. I don't know what to do
Edit : I can't even make it to the post office without panicing