Spravato and regression

[Joshgw]

I just had my third spravato treatment and now I feel like I regressed to back where I started before spravato. My first two were great, i was stable. Has anyone felt they regressed like that on ketamine? I'm depressed and the emotional/depressive pain is back. The suicidal ideation is back. I was stable, now I'm not. I can't go back, need to be there for my family. I know it works. It already has. But what the fuck? I can't go back to all that sobbing. But ive already gone back down that rabbit hole. I know it has already worked, why did it stop. I'm in so much pain again. I know recovery is not linear but this is really drastic. I NEED this to work. It was the only thing that gave me relief up until now.

[EH524]

I have also regressed using Spravato. Except the only treatment that went well for me was the first. Every one after that made me more and more tired and depressed. I feel like I felt a few years ago… and that is NOT good.

I haven’t talked to my Dr. much about it because we were so hell bent on putting a bandaid on my issues so I could go back to work. Now, the bandaid isn’t really enough.

I’m not saying I’m glad you are going through the same thing as I am… but yours is the first post I have seen that even suggests Spravato does not work. It’s just validating.

[Joshgw in reply to EH524]

thanks for replying. I feel validated now too. My dr is still pushing it, but at a lower dose. I couldn't sleep when i was on it (i did 6 sessions). At one point i didn't sleep for four days. Yes, four. I never recovered from each session, one just ran into the other, i just felt completely drugged up all day, i could feel the ketamine just coursing through my veins.

How are you now? Im still looking for relief. Im still in a lot of pain and suicidal. If it wasnt for my son i might not be here. I hope you're doing better than me.

[Stardust2022 in reply to Joshgw]

I just posted about my experience after 6 sessions. I’m so confused. My depression I as worse it’s been in a while. I’ve been crying for 4 days no stop now. I wonder if my bottled up emotions have surfaced up or it’s side effects… did you continue or stop?