The Fallout

[Dragon3695]

I haven't posted in a long time because I was trying to handle everything myself and keep all the emotions and everything that goes along with it out of sight and buried out of mind. Today the overwhelming loneliness hit me and I just can't handle it. I left Nevada after my best friend and I had a falling out because I once again made a bad choice that hurt her so she no longer could stand to be friends with me. I ended up back in Ohio which was my worst case scenario because I have hardly any emotional support here. Now I am out of most my meds while my insurance is in limbo until everything is filed and I ain't homeless. September 2020 until the shit hit the fan around Halloween 2021 was the best of my life. Now I have lost everything that really mattered to me and all the progress I made because I am in so many pieces and most of them just won't fit together anymore.

[Hidden]

Sorry you having hard time. Your life seems to be of struggles. But I feel you will make it through and pray for you. You are stronger than you think Please hold on

[Hidden]

Are you thinking of moving again till you have better luck?

[Dragon3695 in reply to Hidden]

Trying to get a place of my own here for awhile then maybe mo ing back out west

[Hidden]

Dragon are you now back in your Home City ? If this is the case you may remember the best places to go and meet others, however if you have moved from a place where you had a positive life with positive expectations it may be your decision to return was a gut feeling of your loss of a serious friendship.

Remember throwing out the baby in the bathwater can just make you that much unhappy at those negative changes in your life, so a return may be beneficial especially if you will find it easier to move on and find someone new.

However remember sometimes given time the change may be a positive thing especially if you allow some time to pass, and a new circle of friends is found.

Remember however you need to be positive, and you will make those positive changes

BOB