So I’ve been reluctant to ask about this but I thought it was time.
For context, I’ve been diagnosed with anxiety and depression but recently quit my medication for it and haven’t gone to therapy for quite some time.
I keep losing control of myself.
For example, the other day, I sporadically got angry and I started pulling out my hair, scratched the skin off parts of my face until it bled, banging my head against a wall etc.
Also, I have been self harming for a couple of years straight now but the other night (after I got that spurt of anger) I cut a little too deep and now it’s opened quite wide.
I recognise that I need help, but I’m not sure who to go to, what to say or if I even want to go.
I’m frightened of being admitted to a mental hospital or something and getting a different, more serious diagnosis because I don’t think I’m just depressed, I think I have something a little more serious but I’m not sure what.
Help? (sorry and thank you)