It just keeps getting worse...

[willalex3010]

Hey, this is my first post here, please be kind.

Where to start? I've been depressed for a fair while now, but over the past year its got so much worse, to the point where I'm having 'certain' thoughts... My mother is an alcoholic, who becomes very violent when drunk, ob one occasion she threw a knife at me. Also been through a miscarriage and to top it all off the woman I thought was the love of my life left because of the arguments which I now know were caused by the depression.

I'm very angry a lot of the time, not that I've ever laid a finger on a woman. But I want to fight as if in someway this will help me.

I don't even know why I'm posting this, I just hope someone can help.

[Olderal]

Hello Willalex, sorry to hear that life is very difficult at the moment but be reassured by the fact that most of us on here have problems and its not that uncommon.

You don't say whether you've been to see your doctor for some help but it is essential that you see your GP and are completely honest about your problems as that is the only way he/she will be able to help.

Save all your anger for fighting depression which is always a difficult fight but in time with the help of your GP you will come through it. Any other sort of fight is wasted effort and will only result in regrets afterwards and an even worse feeling.

None of us can make it easy for you but we all will be wishing you the best and willing you to come through this bad spell in your life. I hope so much that having shared some of your problems on this forum has at least been of some help.

Olderal

[Suzie40]

Hi Will

My Mum was alcohol dependent too, so I can empathise with you to a certain extent. She was never violent, but that's not to say I didn't experience the emotions and associated depression of watching someone drink themselves to death.

It makes sense to me that you feel so angry; this was an emotion I grappled with for a long time while she was alive and drinking so heavily.

You don't have to feel like this forever. Make an appointment to see your GP. There are loads of options available to you, including support groups for those affected by someone else's alcohol use.

Take care

Lucy x

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Good lord it's Lucy! How the hell are you chuck? Have missed you Bev xx

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Hey you! I'm good thanks! What's news? X

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HI Willalex nice to meet you and welcome to the site. Well done for taking the first brave step by posting on here.

I do have to agree with the others, you need to go to your doctors for a diagnosis for depression then you can access the help available.

Stay with us here too as we all understand depression, don't we just, and we will do our best to help and support you. x

[Photogeek]

Hi there and welcome. I think you may need to get to the bottom of why

You are so angry, Anger can be a part of certain type of Depressions especially

BiPolar, so it might be worth visiting your Dr. For a discussion on the best

Way forward for you.

Your anger must have been quite difficult for your partner if she left, so take this

As a neon sign to do something about it. You have choices, to get it sorted out,

As ultimately you are responsible for those outbursts. I'm sure that you will

Feel much better if you get to the bottom of it.

Let us know how it's going and come back for support and chat.

There is a great Group called AL ANON for people affected by someone

Else's drinking and it really helped me at one stage of my life. Check

Online and see where the meetings are. It's a totally anonymous Group

And you just give your first name. Talking with others in that situation

Is a great help. I would really recommend that and I made some great

Friends there too.

Hannah

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Its no surprise you feel like fighting im sure life with an alcoholic parent must have been hard my father was one but i do think its very different with a mother.

Start with your doctor and be honest and this is not just a flippant response but if you are fit enough do something to release some of your frustration, get to the gym, join a boxing club anything that you would be able to channel that and get it out of your system would be of benefit.

There is also a group called AL-ANON its for anyone who has someone in their lives with alcohol problems they are very good at supporting people.