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Last night I had a mental breakdown and just laid on my back in the rain for about 30 minutes. I was having many suicidal thoughts and was going to go through with them. I was angry and agitated but then became numb and scared. I didn’t want to speak and it felt like I wasn’t there anymore. I have been thinking about sectioning myself for my own safety, but I need some other opinions, any will help.