Depersonalization/Derealization

[starshinex]

Does anyone else struggle badly with DP/DR? I’ve been suffering for at least 7 years, and i’ve been trying my best to keep it under control but lately it’s really taking a toll on my life and i’d love to find someone who related to this.

[MsTree]

I had to look that up to see what it was. And, YES, I have. It's not something that happens on a regular basis, but it does happen. I called it "being outside of myself." I could feel it coming on like a wash over me. I hated it. It was the most horrible feeling. Like watching myself from somewhere else. It always happened right before a bout of depression would hit. I didn't know it was a disorder with a name.

[starshinex in reply to MsTree]

Oh yeah, i’ve been going through this for at least 7 years it’s horrible. What do you normally do when you feel it coming on?

[MsTree in reply to starshinex]

Oh, Lord, thie first thing is I say "Oh, God, here it comes." I wait for it to hit. It lasts sometimes days, sometimes just hours. I know it's the prelude to the depression that's going to follow. Learning why it happens or what triggers it helped me to ride the wave. There is always a trigger. Something happens, a thought, or someone says something that brings it on. Knowing it would pass eventually also helped. This was before anti-depressants had hit the market. Since being on an anti-depressant it doesn't happen anymore. I still suffer depression even with an anti-dressant, but I call it normal depression. Things happening in my life that I have no control over that any sane person with feelings would be depressed over.

[Hidden]

I used to have the same type of problems when in my teens, I found if you close your mouth and swallow your ears will crack and sometimes that will help the feeling phase out. You could also try having a drink of water sometimes that may help.

My problem these days is I see people that are not there on the edge of my viewing range, it only lasts a couple of seconds then clears, I also on occassions feel something like a dog rubs or licks my legs when nothing is there. It feels like our old dog Pip, He is dead now. Even so sometimes I glance Him out of side vision for a couple of seconds. I am at a loss to clear this, although in a way it is a lovely memory of my past best friend. It is nice to know He is still around waiting for me. Sometimes when this happens Pax looks and barks, seem to be picking up on something

BOB

[MsTree in reply to Hidden]

I've always had the same thing for as long as I can remember. As a child it scared me. I would pretend I didn't know "it" was there. Sometimes it was a dark mass of cloud. Sometimes light. Remember, I was a kid, so when I thought I had a chance to run for it and escape it, I ran for it. As an adult I've come to accept it as part of who I am. I've had my eyes checked so there is nothing wrong with my vision. I've decided it's my guardian angel.

[Hidden in reply to MsTree]

I am having further memory tests soon, they have given me various vits B12 and D3 they seem to be having some affect, although just need to wait. Still get dizzy and that comes from neck damage. I am having physio although they say they are not doing the neck

BOB

[MsTree in reply to Hidden]

I had to look up physio but still did not have a clear understanding what that means in medical terms. I read your replies to a lot of the posts on here and you always have very wise views. Just wanted to add that.

[Rmutka1]

Yup... I do things (behavioral wise) way out of context of who I am. And then I tend to disassociate especially when I'm out by myself and I'll end up being at a store for literally 5-6 hours with no recognition of all that time and then I forget where I am and why I'm there... it is SO frustrating !

[Rmutka1]

Mabye mine is not the same thing...

[Hidden in reply to Rmutka1]

Something like that you need to have it checked out.

I forget what happened the day before although they seem to put that down to my Short term memory disorder. My D3 and B12 vits seems to be helping memory sometimes

BOB

[Cky101]

Had it constantly for about 15 years. Its just become normal now...

[Addison_Miller]

Hello starshinex, I suffer with this 24/7 it's been 5 months now. Does this makes the body shake slightly??

[Tikobird]

I've always had an anxiety disorder and have been a worrier since young. I went into depersonalization when I was 14 and it's been with me persistently 24/7 for many decades