It’s been a while since I’ve posted. Let’s nust say I’m slapping that rubber band on my wrist, wishing I were dead again. I’ve seen 3 therapists now. I feel like I’ve made so much progress since I started therapy. Today isn’t the day I brought myself back to harming myself even though it’s nowhere near cutting. I’m so upset. People keep telling me things will get better but I don’t believe them. I want to die still. I’ve been praying for God to heal me, but it’s not happening so slowly. I’m still wondering if suicide will take my life one day. I wish someone could just help me.