The Funeral

[MsTree]

I'm going to have a funeral for my marriage. I'll lay out old photos, my wedding ring, a piece of his clothing and anything else that needs burying. I'll be the only one attending and there will be tears of sadness for the life we had together when it was good. I will pray for strength in the coming days as the death certificate (Divorce Decree) is finalized and filed away in a dusty vault. It will be just another file among many. Stuck in those forgotten files will be my life of 41+ years with a man I loved, had children and grandchildren with, and then it died. The memories of him will fade with time. I will cry at unexpected moments as someone grieving will do. I will lay awake at night praying for sleep to quiet my tortured heart and mind. I won't be receiving guests or getting any cards in the mail expressing sympathy, no hugs of comfort from family and friends. For they do not know the depth of my sorrow nor the death of my life as I knew it. I will sing our favorite song beside the grave. Then I will walk away and begin anew.

[PNIAuthor60]

Your ritual to mark the loss is healthy, but I can only imagine how difficult it might be.

There will be at least two people there - you have told me of your dependence on the Lord and He has promised never to leave us or forsake us. I know Him to be your strength and resiliency.

My prayers continue for you as you journey forward one step at a time.

[Roastdinner]

Big Hug sent to you MsTree Acceptance that your marriage is over is very important. I ripped up all my marriage pictures (I really did get upset and cry allot) But it is a good way of realising that LONG Relationship has finished and gone in the past now. The future is waiting for you now (It is normal to cry and be low after ending such a long term past relationship. xx