Suicidal Ideation is a pain in the but.

[Imaginator997]

I am going to the doctor today to have my medication adjusted. The doctor is increasing my dosage. Hopefully it works, Saturday I told my therapist how I was feeling and she wanted to send me to the hospital. This is the kind of stuff that frustrates me, I know it is their job to keep me safe but this is the problem I struggle with, the problem I struggle with is suicidal ideation and intrusive suicidal thoughts along with my depression. I could be enjoying myself and even so I will have thoughts about suicide. This brings me to my point of hopelessness, in that if I tell my therapist about my struggles with my thoughts of doctor, they will just send my to a hospital. I do not like psych wards at all they are very boring, and I am going to be 18 in about 2 weeks so pretty soon I will have to be with the adults, and I am scared of having to do that if it ever comes down to that point. Anybody else relate?

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Hi, first of all I am not a medical professional and can not give any medical advice.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling this way and I can relate to your situation. I know its scary to open up to doctors and therapists but you have to understand that they are not trying to hurt you, they just want to help. I have had bad experiences with doctors telling me that my depression was just a teenage thing as I too am 18. The truth is most doctors and therapists do not understand what it feels like to be depressed and cannot empathise with you.

I am fortunate enough to have never been hospitalised with my depression, but I did have really bad suicidal thoughts and even planned it out. This was 1 year ago and after being prescribed anti-depressants and undergoing therapy I am much better. I know its scary but just aim to do whatever it takes in order to feel better. Do you have any family or friends that can support you at this difficult time?

Feel free to private message me if you need someone to talk too.

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Dependent on where or what country you live in you may have various recommendations that may help you

If suicidal in the UK contact NHS Information on Tel 111 they will help you and if needed move you onto the best department that can help.

How did you get on at the Doctors ?.

BOB

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