I'm done with this life

[Lostandalone1221]

There is so much, where to start... April 2018 I was told that my spinal cord was being crushed, so I had 2 surgeries to try and correct it... they both failed. Now I am no longer able to follow my passion... I have been in nursing for almost 25 years it is who I have always been... Now because I am not able to work, WE were forced to move, now I live in a state that I have absolute no one other than my husband, and lately that ship seems to be sinking... I don't know anyone here, I have no family no friends, I am in constant pain, WE fight all the time, I just want to throw in the towel and say screw it... It's not worth the pain, the aggravation, or the intense stress... I'm done... I don'twant to do this anymoe....

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Lostandalone1221 and welcome to this community. Sorry to hear that you have been going through such a terrible time. You have had major surgery, had to give up the job you love and move home. Individually any one of these is bound to cause great anxiety and distress and have a big impact on both you and your husband.

You say you are in constant pain. Is there any specialist pain clinics that you could attend to get advice on ongoing management? I wonder if you are physically able to join some kind of local group which might give you an opportunity to meet other people. Maybe your husband could do something similar?

The members here will share their life experience and wisdom with you. Please keep posting and we will try to support you as much as we can.

[Ssooff]

How are you doing today?