At the end of my tether

[Avisrose]

I have been on antidepressants for about 12 years. I have days were I am ok and this can last for months and then for no apparent reason I am at rock bottom again. My doctor has got me to sign up to the gym and I am back in contact with Italk. I have also paid to see a councilor which all works for a while. I also have a interactive thyroid which doesn't help. I am now at the end off my tether. I don't want to be like this anymore.

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Avisrose

Your GP is trying to divert your attention to other interests, hence the GYM. This is quite normal. Have you other interests where you find you enjoy and lift your mood.

I have been on medications for many years and over time I have enjoyed different ways to divert my negative mood to a more positive attitude in life. Appointments with I Talk should also help you come to terms with your condition and move onto a more calm period in your life.

Life with various health problems can cause us to pull back from our lives sometimes. I have physical health problems that affect my Mental Health Moods and to live a life that is rich and full I have to be able to control all the negativity I suffer from.

Hopefully with your CBT you will learn how to move on through your life

BOB

[PinkG]

Hey Avisrose.

I have also been on antidepressants for about 12 years on and off but more on as I have melt downs by 4th month off them my inability to cope starts to affect my life, I shut people out and I break down in tears!

I have had Cbt for 18th months every 8 weeks, it does help talking and being open, I lost the love of my life through struggling with expressing my feelings and being off my tablets at the time, and pushing him away, I struggle daily with this regret, of not being a better person. At 38 I am now single again and have established I’m better off alone. I now try and live for each day. Not trying to tell myself I should be married or be a mum etc I’m grateful to have my health, a job , a few family members and friends.

I find routine helps me, and I couldn’t live without exercising, the gym can be boring but I do classes that I enjoy, body pump and circuits are both good fun and burn calories, eat little and often and never miss breakfast.

I know it can be frustrating, I take thyroxine too and find I’m always tired or cold.

I sometimes worry I have something like a PD or BDO but I think that’s just my anxiety, and depression is in our family genes! As my late dad struggled most of his adult life.

Keep strong and things will get better

[Avisrose in reply to PinkG]

I should be very happy has I have a fab husband 5 beautiful children and 3 adorable grandchildren but there are times more often than not that I find any pleasure in that fact yet I love them with my heart and soul and they are everything I ever wanted. I do do classes I like yoga as this relaxes me. Like you I think it's in the family as my sister is worse than me and our mum had a period of depression to. It sucks and I feel guilty for those around me as I know it effects them and I desperately don't want it to.