Self Isolation or Needed Alone Time?

[Vegan_Gal123]

I've had it in my mind I've needed to surround myself with people in order to help my mental health. I was around people all the time, but mostly I would still feel disconnected from myself, anxious, or like I'm nother person around others. I'm a sensitive person, I feel what others feel. When people are flaky or hurt me, I withdraw, I understand people aren't perfect but sometimes I don't want to be around anyone. Being around others is like a roller coaster at times. I can't fully trust anyone but definitely one person, maybe two. don't want to talk or get too close or reveal too much for fear of others reactions (other peoples emotions impact me)

I don't like immediately trusting or letting my guard down around others Yet I hear it's healthy to have relationship desires (friendship, attraction etc) I feel overwhelmed with the emotions I feel from "needing" others plus I can't be around people all the time so I say to myself, what's the point in adding a need that can't be present when I need it?

Even when I desire to date, the strategic planning, the over thinking, the anxiety, and strong feelings I develop are too much.

I don't want to limit myself in life, i love hobbies, working , a limited circle of people, is this normal?

[SJW84]

Hi it sounds like you very much suffer with your anxiety and the triggers that make your anxiety worse. The best thing I ever did was went on a healthy minds course which focuses on Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. This started to make me more aware of my anxiety triggers and taught me ways to handle them. I was in a really bad place before I started the therapy but it has now become more manageable. Your doctors should be able to point you in the direction of such therapy groups.