Left brain shouting at Right side WAR IN MY HEAD

[Jaycbd]

Wow got so angry with myself I got evil in the mirror telling the internal voice to shut up, guess what it helps emensly, I don't take mental health drugs no more they made me worse and disabled ♿ I believe. Now I have a functional neurological disorder, I'm on a walking sticks it's like MS. Cut long story short I arrange a trip to Cornwall first CANNA AGM strictly no smoking, my lad came as support, but on arrival it was so busy a traffic congestion a car boot sale on ect,lots of human traffic. I said to my son feel ill after driving 1 half hours he agreed it was to busy for him even. So we drove off to get food and toilet break.IT left me internally talking about I never meet anyone,or network the canna community I'm a lone Wolf 🐺 using CBD successfully to get away from Pharmaceuticals. All these meeting I miss feel like a huge loss and faliue on my egos part,or its just the complex post traumatic stress disorder raising it's head again.That being said I was quite mellowed out, just getting confused driving even tho my son was Co pilot with sat Nav in a strange town in holiday season.It didn't feel right so I went with the gut.AND had lunchtime in car with my teen lad,then drove home exhausted, thinking bad things of myself. But obviously not meant to be as it to far down and to busy for me. Peace n love peeps

If allowed x rant about it of loaded

[MAS_Nurse]

Hello Jaycbd, its a shame that your trip didn't work out quite as you expected but it seems like you did the right thing in diverting from the journey and enjoying some time with your son. Summer in Cornwall can be a nightmare as far as traffic and crowds are concerned. I read somewhere recently that the county has been overwhelmed with visitors this summer - one downside of the good weather. Perhaps you will have another opportunity to travel soon.

Take Care

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Jay

The resorts are busy this time of year with the Bank Holiday etc, We generally hide at this time of year and not go out at all. I hate all the traffic and on Monday/Saturday people and kids will be going back to school. We were out and about before the holiday period last week and it became a good day. Today will see us dodging the rain showers out in the garden.

Personally you need to talk to your GP, make a double appointment and a list what is going on and what is affecting you. It may be medications over a short term are needed to relax you down.

Do you use relaxation Technique MINDFULNESS, that may help

BOB