Tired...

[Lu2356]

So I have been feeling pretty tired as of late. This whole thing with my mom has been very emotionally draining. My kids are still on summer. vacation. I have been applying like a mad woman for a job. My school loans are past the renewal date for payment arrangements. I haven’t done the insurance paperwork for the kids either. So many things I have to do and I feel so overwhelmed... 😔

[Rm31]

In my experience feeling tired is my body's way of finding comfort. Because stress, anxiety, depression, they all take a huge toll on your energy, mentally. One time I went home from work in the middle of the day because I was exhausted with my self doubt and anxiety. I cried then fell asleep like a baby and woke up an hour later, I did not realize how tired my body was because of my mind working overtime. I felt better when I returned to work later.

Job hunt is very scary. I've been through some desperate days before I got this job. I could lose everything including having to move to another country. But I switched off my emotions and mechanically kept calling, editing resumes and sending applications desperately to one and all places and people I knew. Just know that your profession (whatever it may be) and the market needs you just as much as you need the job. It'll make it a little bit less stressful.

[Lu2356 in reply to Rm31]

Thank u! I needed to hear this bc u are absolutely correct and I know this, but I always push and push myself to do as much as I can. Sometimes, it’s just me feeling defeated by my own self. I have always had a hard time being alone. Being alone always makes me think too much. Now at almost 40, it’s not so bad but I still need to make myself be around people and not get “lazy” or more like withdrawn. So many tabs open on a daily basis and I always forget to close them at the end of the day...