Annette 23 polish

[Blacksheep123]

Just my Introduction. I feel so awkward for writing this. But here we go. So my name is Annette. I'm 23. I am a middle child. I like animals and I love the idea of being in a relationship. I'm not really Interested in anything besides fixing the problems that I have and sleep.

[Iluvhorses]

Hello Annette, my name is Michelle. I am 25 years old and like animals too especially horses. I have one half-sister whom I have never met. It's nice to meet you

[sweetiepye]

Not being clairvoyant , I need a little more information about what you are having a problem with. I would guess depression, but I don't want to guess because I imagine it's serious and causing you some pain and /or fear.Sleep, I hardly ever do and it can be a real issue. So post again with more info. and rest assured you will hear from several kind and supportive people. Welcome to the site, and I particularly want to know why you mentioned being a middle child. I have one, he's 45 , and it's still an issue for him. I suspect it's a little tongue in cheek ,but I'd be interested in what you have to say. Pam

[Blacksheep123 in reply to sweetiepye]

First of all thank you for replying. Yes I'm depressed. It's from everything. Not fitting in school. I don't feel truly connected to anyone and no one really reciprocates when I do. I've been to the hospital once or twice. My depression is really bad. Like really bad. I feel like everyone is against me. Even my family which is so bad. I don't want to do anything with my life. I feel like I'm not worth love. I apologize for everything. I'm guilty of everything. When people feel bad I also feel bad. I'm like an empath. I'm also afraid of going to hell. Basically fear rules my life. I just don't feel loved is all. My parents fight a lot. I have to tell my mom to hug me sometimes she doesn't do it herself. My dad is a lot more affectionate. I need to go see a therapist for all this shit. 😂😂😂😂 I'm like at my breaking point. I can't express anger. I feel bad for doingn so. I also feel like my parents didn't let me cry or be angry. They always said yo stop crying. Stop being angry. I had to suck it up as a kid. Middle child thing. Yes I'm the middle chcild and I don't feel like I'm appreciated enough. People take me for granted. I just want to be loved. 🤑🤑 too much pressure to succeed.

I'm afraid of losin people. Had 10 or more relationships and I ended all of them. There was more than one reason but like honestly I feel like no one understands me. And I don't really care if anyone does. No one has to live in my shoes except me.

I miss being a kid. I can't adult. I'm at schcool right now. I got out of bed today which is miraculous. I'm really trying. I feel hurt is all. Healing from everything. It sucks. It hurts.

[sweetiepye in reply to Blacksheep123]

I'm just going to throw some thoughts out there and you tell me if you relate to them. Most mental illness like depression. panic attacks , or anxiety lie to you. They cause you to have thoughts that are not true. Depression makes you physically tired so you have another thing to feel guilty about . People probably don't understand and also don't know what to say to you. Try to see a therapist and maybe a gp. . Get some exercise and eat well. It all helps. I have seen many people get well on this site so have hope. The longer you go without treatment the more of a habit these things become. So get a move on and keep posting so we can keep encouraging you. Pam

[Blacksheep123 in reply to sweetiepye]

I eat super healthy. I have a stressful school environment.. it makes my depression worse.

[sweetiepye in reply to Blacksheep123]

Any chance of home schooling?

[Blacksheep123 in reply to sweetiepye]

Well I'm 23 and I yeah I can take online business classes to get a certificate. I will probably do that

[sweetiepye in reply to Blacksheep123]

Sometimes in life we have to make concessions to get to where we want to be. I think you will be able to be successful by doing things "your way". There's more than one way to skin a cat as my Grandmother used to dsy

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Hi, Annette! Nice to meet you. I love animals and relationships too but only healthy relationships.