Does anyone else feel the same?

Hi, I am new to this site and don't know what to expect, but I have been taking citalopram for approx. 10 years although I think my depression has been with me much longer, I have periods when I am really down and then periods when I can cope, but I am always tired, and always think that if I dont wake up tomorrow that's ok, I wouldn't do anything about it but I just don't get any pleasure in anything these days it feels like I am just going through the motions. I have a wonderful husband two wonderful daughters and two beautiful grandchildren. My family are aware I have depression but one of my sisters always tries to get me to do things and gives me mindfulness books, if I am honest it drives me mad. Can anyone else relate or is it just me???? thanks for taking the time to read this post

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Can relate

Yo seem to are doing most things that will help, although you seem to have a full life that you can embrace.

What are your fears and concerns, why you feel so low ?

BOB

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Hi , that is my problem i have nothing to be depressed about , but life is a struggle , i know i should be happy but its just not the case , i am fed up of feeling like this .

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Hi i look after my grandchildren 9 month old full time and do the school runs for our 5yr old , my daughter and son in law work full time, i havd clinical depression and the dr says i gave to take the tablets, i have had friends who have had cancer and dont get depressed, wouldnt wish this on anyone but feel selfish and stupid when nothing in my life should be making me depressed. Thank you for replying and i am sorry for moaning when you have your own issues x

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You have two Grandchildren and two children, fair comment.

Personally I do not know what was the cause of your Depression. All I do know we need to make choices, if you are having problems you need to discuss the situation you find yourself in. Life is full of decisions if we have problems we approach them and decide on ways forward. You may not be at the top of your game.

I wish you well

BOB

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yes... meds are not the cure all unfortunately...this emotional roller coaster is the ebb and flow of ups and downs you still go through. Depression is a chemical imbalance in the brain, it's not your fault, and there is no cure. All you can do is try to manage it. If your medication is not working very well, you may want to talk to your doctor about it. As far as the sisters and the self help books....it's true no one book, med, or person can fix us....but you have to give them credit for caring enough to try.

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Hi I know you are right, Doctor once told me you have an illness that no one can see but just because you can't see it doesn't make it unreal , thanks for the response

[Krazie]

Celexa kept my depression just above suicide level. My depression comes and goes, like the seasons of the year. It has nothing to do with my current circumstances. I had a very traumatic childhood, and what I have read on the subject suggests that the brain patterns of a child are changed. I have learned to live with it, as I know the depression will leave, even if it doesn't seem so, at the time. I have a box of coping tools that I picked up in therapy that help get me through.