I ruined my life and feel theres no hope for me

[MustBeAWay]

I'm 43 years old. 5 years ago I lost everything. Instead of praying I lashed out in anger. Now I can't fogive myself and just do not want to live anymore. I've always been the strong one, I want to die.

[sweetiepye]

Hello and welcome, You mentioned prayer and so I am going to answer you like the Christian I am. God has already forgiven you. He knows you and yet he has forgiven you. Surely you can do the same .Do you think it is easy for God to forgive ? No where in the Bible have I read that forgiving is easy, just necessary. You will be in my prayers, Pam

[MustBeAWay in reply to sweetiepye]

Thank you for the prayers. I truly feel it's too late for me. I should have prayed in the beginning. 😭

[sweetiepye in reply to MustBeAWay]

God's love and forgiveness are timeless. It can take people a long time to realize and come to terms with their sins, as long as you have breath in your body you can forgive and be forgiven. Pray about it.

[MustBeAWay]

Plus I have depression and was recently told I'm schizophrenic. I can't have the once loving relationship with my kids.

[MustBeAWay in reply to MustBeAWay]

Woke up feeling stupid.