I also just want to add I don’...

[Anonymous_567]

I also just want to add I don’t actualu have a mental health diagnosis as I have never spoken to health professionals about how I feel. When I was a teenager I had some councelling after a suicide attempt, but nothing since then.

I am very good at hiding the truth but I think it’s getting harder now especially as I think my friends are becoming suspicious. I want to talk to them and be honest but I’m embarrassed and ashamed. I’m not the kind of person to ask. I work with clients that suffer with mental health and I help people on a daily Basis in the work I am in, although I am unable to help myself ?

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I am the same. I have never been to the doctors or seen a therapist. But lately I have just been so down. My everyday life is just the same all the time and my parents think I’m very negative and depressive. Also I scroll on social media and see all these slim girls that I know and it makes me think that I am not slim. I’ve never liked my body. I’m the fattest one out of my friend group. Plus I’m at a new school now and I’ve got a friend group but they leave me out a lot. I just think it’s a lot to cope with and I can’t really do this for much longer. I am laying here crying in bed. I haven’t left the house all weekend. I sleep a lot and I don’t know what to do because I am always happy at school and no one really knows. But I just need to talk to someone

[Anonymous_567 in reply to Hidden]

Hi, can I ask how old you are ? as you mentioned you are of school age. We all have different body types and what you see on social media isn’t reality ! Not really.. please remember these celebs and insta models starve them selfs (very unhealthy )use drugs, have plastic surgery a lot ! and have personal trainers. Comparing your self to them is very unrealistic and you shouldn’t do so. If you are unhappy with your weight there are things you can do to improve your health i.e exercise. Healthy eating etc . Also your still growing your body will change and being a size 0 is not attractive ! Being healthy is key ! I myself have gained a lot of weight in the past year, going from a size 8-10 to a size 12 and it’s made me miserable and unhealthy so now I am joining a fitness class which should also better my mental health.. small steps at at time makes a big difference. Don’t run before you can work take things at your own pace.

Apart from your weight, what is making you feel down ? Your parents are probably finding it difficult to understand how you are feeling that’s all, try to be more specific and explain to them exactly what it is it that is making you feel low or if you find it easier, write down how you feel. Keep a diary? I would also recommend a trip to your GP they would be able to make suitable referrals to external agencies to help you such as CAMH. I think it sounds like you just need some one to talk too, do you have a school councillor? If you do I would Defo recommend speaking to them.

Don’t be embarrassed to ask for help.. everyone has mental health it’s how we cope with it that is important! Don’t hide or isolate your self be honest and get the help you feel you need. Speak to your friends how you feel if they are good friends they will understand and take your feelings into consideration and if they don’t then you are better off without them !

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I’m 14. I know exercise is the obvious option but honestly. I am so tired all of the time. I just don’t wanna go for a run after a long day at school. Which is guess makes me lazy but yeh I don’t really know. I just feel so alone. Because know one knows what’s Happening with me. I come off as quite a happy person and I dont think I could ever talk to my friends or a councillor about it. I would be Embarrassed and they would laugh. Plus my family is very poor right now. We’re gonna have to move house which I really don’t want to do. I asked my mum if I could join a gym but she said we couldn’t afford it. She couldn’t even afford to pay the council tax on time last week.

[Anonymous_567 in reply to Hidden]

No your not lazy at all! I completely understand how you feel and being depressed won’t make you feel as if you have much energy. The reason I am suggesting exercise is because it really does work ! 1. you will loose weight and 2. Exercise is a proven factor in bettering ones mental health ! It naturally makes your feel happy. Could you perhaps go for a walk or jog ? Or if you have the internet YouTube has plenty of exercise videos you can do at home. It’s a start, like I said small steps at a time you will slowly get there you just need to push your self.

You shouldn’t feel embarrassed about how you feel and I can assure you that no councillor would laugh at your worries. Just as you are talking to me now they are there to talk to you and guide you, give advice and prescribe medication should you require it. I think you need to explain to your parents how you are feeling and they can support you in going to your GP.

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Hey! I understand your situation I'm a lot like that too. I got help with a therapist when I attempted to commit suicide. I'm very shall we say stoic, I never ever let on how I feel if I do then it's usually in the form of downgrading myself when I say it. I'm good at helping out people with depression, anxiety, or just even people who are therapists. But if you put me in front of a therapist I tend to bar myself and talk about my issues but I never really open up entirely I always keep how I truly feel locked up so that I guess no one has the excuse to help me out. Helps something I've never used much in my life I tend to push any of it away by telling them what they want to hear so that I don't have to show that I feel worthless and depressed and suicidal.

Anyway, hopefully I haven't freaked you out too much with my story. Take care!

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Thankyou for the advice. I feel a bit better now I written it all down and someone’s actually replied. Thankyou for caring

[Anonymous_567 in reply to Hidden]

No problem ! I hope you get the help you need.. talk to those close to you. Take care x

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Also I'm online schooled at home and I'm 18. I have 3 pets at home one is at a barn he's a horse I have 2 dogs one is going to be a service dog for my hearing. I've ridden horses all my life and I sing in a choir. I also am an avid physics person as in Black holes, quantum mechanics that sort of thing which means my idea of a "clean" room means organized chaos. I have just had my first immediate relative die of stage four cancer to possibly the brain she was my personal therapist and basically rock. I have had many deaths early in my life when I was noticeably depressed because I could barely hear. I've also had traumatic ones which haven't been good. I waited for about 3 years for my grandma to die it's absolutely not fun and I feel for the ones who've gone through that.

I've had some help from therapist and my parents are supportive the only problem is what I explained in my first post to you which is the amount of stoicism I don't lack. I wish I knew how to get better but mostly the way I learned to cope with anything is bottle it up and never let on to how you feel. So basically if anything starts bothering me I never cry because after it just leaves me feeling even worse than I was before basically unfeeling towards anything.